Readying For The Landscape

Autumn morning at Jake’s, a breath of crisp air follows every patron entering the door. Coffee, tasty bagels and news of the town await those taking a table. New patrons become new friends, waiting in line to place their order. The  aroma of cinnamon bagels drifting out from the oven fills the air with a warm friendly hug. Serve-yourself coffeepots with one's favorite flavors waiting for you with a smile and a comment from a new acquaintance. George and Melissa have their seats, as I take mine, and the rest of our group trickles in.

What's new with you? It’s the old opening question. Great deals on shopping are always discussed, as everyone nods toward a new patron covered in tattoos taking his place in line. A subject for a painting, with his tattoos, becomes the topic.  He is already a work of art we decide and George points out the still, mirror-like waters of the river reflecting the trees on the island across from Jake’s. The strong morning light hasn't reached the grey limbs of a fallen tree. Its branches are like slender fingers reaching out, testing the waters and painting the scene for each of us. Coming in the east windows is that same morning light, falling on George's tree, and it has my attention as it turns figures into simple silhouettes surrounded by blinding whites.

I have done many sketches of Jake's patrons, Pastor Bob writing his sermon, teens cramming for that test, a mom cutting a bagel up for her little girl. Jakes’ has become my studio with its people and interior with its morning light.  A near abstract of black and white, with hints of color sprinkled throughout the scene, it has sparked my imagination many times. All in the group have eyes on the fallen trees, as I paint the scene of patrons in the eastern light, inside my head again. The tattooed man loses his tattoos as he becomes one of     the silhouettes in the painting forming in my head. “Are you listening?” George asks. I nod that I am as I continue the painting going on in my head.  We are introduced to Al's new wife as they join the group and I set my imagination aside. A dozen new questions are directed at the new couple. Soon it is time for work and we head for our studios and waiting easels. I see George taking in a long look at the trees on the island. 

In the studio my painting on the easel will be put aside for an hour or two as I work out, not the abstract scene gripping my mind, but a mother-child painting. Out of the blue, a mother and child are there, clear as can be. Several on the spot studies stare at me wondering why I am putting them aside, as I rough in two figures on yet another fresh canvas.  Miss. Marple is solving "A Murder is Announced,” from my computer - my form of music. It helps to clear my head. Old sketches of the people at Jake’s help in my struggle to clear the scene I painted this morning in my head. Soon, my studio is a mess with on-the-spot landscapes and old sketches of people. Miss. Marple has solved her murder and I have freed my mind of Jake’s. Putting my little oil of a mom and her redheaded little girl aside. I am ready to work on my landscape.      

The White Ground of My Soul

In the grips of a white canvas, possibilities hold me. Looking for a key to unlock the treasure hidden away to free myself.  A sunset, a still-life, even a nude may hold it.  A gift to myself awaits me with the opening of each painting. Finding my place in the world comes from an understanding of what I do not know, and is the gift every artist finds. Lifting a color to the bare white canvas begins the learning process.

The purplish grey banks of a stream or the pinks of a knee are not the treasure I'm seeking. A model sighs , a bee hums, stirring the moment of understanding as the first stroke of color appears on that white ground that I believe to be my soul. Each color, each stroke is turning the key to the lock holding my gift.  Brush work takes on a meaning as the colors speak softly. I know the subject, but not the moment the understanding will come.

Excitement is followed by disappointment and doubt as the colors fall silent. My palette calls for a cleaning, the model needs a break, Henry needs a pat on the head. His dark eyes tell me to turn ever so slowly. A fresh brush with fresh colors gives a turn to the key, moving closer to unlocking the canvas and its treasure.

Painting is always about seeking truth. I take what is visible before me and reveal myself, both to the world, and to myself, through what I choose to see with each painting. I am there on the canvas, in the form of a landscape or standing proud as a still-life. Even the portrait of Kim is a self portrait. I believe it is that way for all artists no matter what form they paint in. A dancer with jazz dancing, while another picks up the clarinet, each revealing their soul.

My art has brought me to where I am in life. It has formed me, opened my mind to others, and even revealed a writer in me. The thinking that goes into a painting is the strengthening of the creativeness I desire, spilling over to other parts of my soul as I grow as an artist. How else to explain the peace I so enjoy? Pressure and stress have faded as the canvases have passed my easel. Tolerance of myself, I now accept.